An upsetting day...

Well...we went to the Dr. this morning and it didn't go like I was hoping. Tomorrow is my due date, and last week the Dr. said that if I was still pregnant today that I we would schedule a date to induce my labor. I assumed that it would be scheduled for the beginning of next week, but I was wrong. The first thing she said to me was "how does a week from Monday sound?" I looked straight at her and said "Not good". Then I started crying, because I really thought that I was almost done, and as it turns out I have to wait another week. All week long the only thing that was keeping me sane was thinking that no matter what, in less than a week I would not be pregnant anymore. I pleaded with the Dr. so she called the hospital, but they said they were all full for next week. I really felt defeated. She checked me and said that I am now 2 cm dilated and she also stripped my membranes because sometimes that can help stimulate labor. We left there and I was feeling horrible. I guess I don't feel like my doctor really cared that I was so upset. Which really might make me think about switching doctors before we have anymore kids. I know that if I was still in Fort Worth and Dr. Howell was my doctor, that I would not still be pregnant. I'm hoping that I will go into labor on my own, because that seems to be the only way I am going to have this baby before June 23rd. I'm trying to keep my head up and remain positive, but its hard when you feel like crap 100% of the time. I do want to say that I appreciate everyone that has called to check on us, and I also want to apologize if I haven't answered the phone, but right now I just don't feel like talking to anyone, especially about still being pregnant. I just want to think about other things right now, like my birthday that is coming up next week. Please pray for me and the baby, that labor will come soon.